(2005-05-12)
Le Rant
_____________________________________
You know how I said I was going to make a decent new layout that I would put effort into? Well, I lied. ^.^ But I just HAD to make a layout using this purdy picture of Maya, so I pretty much just copied the code of my previous one, edited the colours, did the positioning and VOILA.
There are still a few things that need adjusting, though...and something doesn't look quite. Maybe the border should be a different colour? Or the text? Or maybe the picture should be a bit more to the left...tag your comments, people!
I'm staying home today, as you can see. And yes, I am fully aware that I was also at home yesterday. Shaddup. >.< I've been feeling like shit, and I thought I could also take the opportunity to finish my science project and study for le test. I am SO glad I didn't do the test on bondage (yes, bondage), because I would have failed miserably. Truth is, I know absolutely nothing about all that bonding crap. But I went pretty well on the other science test. 87%, I think, and I didn't even study. *gloats* But still, it's not enough to make up for my abysmal marks in Maths, Latin and the science test that's coming up (that I KNOW I will fail).
Oh shit. I'm in a real crisis here. How the hell do you draw those diagram things? Damn Ms Sturma. The only thing good about science is that tomorrow is the last day with Sturma. But then we'll probably get some other tight-assed teacher...*shudder* Ms Paxinos is so annoyingly pissed-off all the time that it's like Billy's entire mass is constantly shoved up her ass.
Oh, look! It's 10:01 am. That's a palindrome. Like Glenelg.
*sigh* I'm so stressed. That's the only emotion (if it is an emotion) I've been feeling this semester. I always feel so...empty, in a way, and my energy levels are always low, though sometimes I get small bursts that last for 10 minutes max, then I'm even worse.
Also, I always have the need to eat heaps, even though I'm never that hungry. It's really affecting my figure. And no, I'm not going to become anorexic or bulimic by saying that (It'd be impossible). But though I'm really conscious of the fact that I'm out of shape, I just don't have enough willpower or inner strength to do anything about it.
I always have no self-confidence in terms of both my appearance and personality. I mean, look at me - oily hair & face, a 'checkerboard of pimples' (as Misev once said) running across my forehead, horrifyingly ugly facial features (such as a moustache, crooked nose and thick manly eyebrows), hair arms & legs, a pudgy body, the ugliest wardrobe EVER due to lack of shopping (which is a result of too much to do) and on top of all that - I'm a bitch. A fucking, stupid, dumb bitch who is an 'anime freak' and a 'mentally insane psycho', to quote a few of my "friends". Rachel once assured me that I had friends, but I seriously doubt that now. Ever since Miki and I have been separated in class she doesn't talk to me as much, and besides most of the time she's with Jeremy. I just feel so distant. I don't feel comfortable with anyone. I'm...a loner.
But screw everyone. I mean, even my grades are failing! Ho hum! I called my mum a bitch the other day! My dad hates me! I nearly failed my Taekwondo grading after years of A+'s! Hahahahaha! My soccer coach has just admitted that he's out to get me! Everyone thinks I'm an ugly lazy bitch, which unfortunately is true!
Excuse me while I go change my pad.
I'm disgusting, aren't I? See, that's another one of my many flaws that seem to drive people away. And I'm too open, and often scream out how I'm currently feeling or thinking to everyone, like right now (even though my mouth is shut). I'm sorry if I've offended anyone, but this is how I feel.
I'd better stop before I get too depressed. Otherwise people will start calling me Ilya... I'm such an emo kid, aren't I? Gothic. I'm just going to go off and slice my wrists open. Seeya later.
(Time taken: 28 minutes)
(date: 2005-05-12 time: 10:01 a.m.)
________________________________________
i iz t3h sUx0rZ - 2005-11-12
Advent Children is the shiznit. - 2005-11-05
I will right wrong and triumph over evil, and that means YOU! - 2005-10-18
Hott. - 2005-09-07
I like-a to ride zee shoopuf - 2005-09-06
________________________________________
tag, hag.
| Powered by TagBoard Message Board |
